THE TRUTH IS HERE

Hello world,


Today is the sacred day, the true victory celebration for muslim people. As ritual, people are going to pray together, gathering with families, forgiving each other, etc. For me, this is the first day I celebrate Ramadhan together with my husband. I wonder, may exciting things will happen today. We (me and my husband) are already set up some plans to confront this day.

I started the day at 5.00 am in the morning, took a bath in the middle of Bandung's morning cold air. Planned to pick up my husband from his duty at the hospital at 6.00am then went to mosque together for ied praying.


But things were going different. After 1 hour waiting in vain, I decided to pray at the hospital. He said that there were some new patients coming up and need to have surgery immediately.

I'm so dissapointed at that time. As a new couple, one thing was crossing my mind is, how dare his chief do that to us. Even my husband couldn't go to pray Ied by force of immediate surgery. He supposed to finish then shift his duty to his friends on 5.45, and now he needed to prolong his duty until 6 hours ahead.

Then I choose to went back home with empty hand. I couldn't wait there for another 6 hours, it will kill me.

I guess by husband would feel the same way as i do, but he's not. He asked me to be patient, because this is his job. He thought that this surgery was more important than the Ied pray and eating ketupat with his family. I almost upset by his statement until he said that "this is one's life i'm tying to save, otherwise he won't face any ramadhan next year".

I was shrug off. I'm shy to myself. How come I'd be that selfish. What's the point of praying together, eating ketupat together if on the different place, someone is struggling for his life and might be won't feel Ramadhan again because of me, me that grumbling a lot, asking my husband to choose his family at that time.

So this is what pa ustadz called miracle of ramadhan. What I learn today is not about forgiving or family juxtapose, but to be more patient and sincere facing what might be more important than ourself.