Today is the determination of my lifetime anxiety, actually my women-xiety. The USG test and TORCH test. Perhaps, all woman-to-be in this world will feel the same as I am. Yes, it's about the fertility and probability of having a cute healthy baby.
After had have much support from husband and family, finally I decided to test it (a little drama and exaggerated). Finally i choose one of the prominent gynecologist in Bandung.
Initially i felt a bit awkward. Honestly that was the first time within 25 years I went to see the gynecologist.
Registered at the evening queue intentionally, the nurse offered me to go straight to the doctor's room. I was scared at that time, I'm alone, no husband, no mother, no friends, just myself, and that was the first time. But, on a second thought, why should be afraid, eventually I should meet him though. Then I got into his room, and he was immediately asks me to go to the USG diagnose chair (trans vaginal diagnose).
It was the most awkward situation in my whole life (sitting NOT sleeping in a chair that required my legs open wide), but the doctor was calm me down, and he (slowly and gently) entered the instrument which-formed like a vibrator (sounds creepy and it was) into my uterus.
For a moment i was paused, waited his reaction, and finally he said "Fortunately, your uterus in a good condition, in fact being fertile at this moment, can be directly fertilized".
The nervous feeling suddenly disappeared. At least, I lost one concern. Still one remain, the TORCH test. I'm not pretty sure about this, my house is like a zoo, many cats and birds eventhough I've rarely get in touch with them. But still, it's freaks me out.
This test need 3 tubes of my blood. For God sake, it was make me limp. The result will arrived within 2 days, and hopefully the result won't be that horrible.
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